S T A R C H Y U
❀ EST 1998 ❀
Bee· 21 · INF/TP · ♌
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Hello!
I was going to post this on Tumblr but decided I wanted to keep it from public eyes for a bit. So, here are my personal goals for 2021. Because it's never too early to start planning~ So I'm gonna lay out my goals and form somewhat of a plan to accomplish them.
MY GOALS FOR 2021
Losing Weight
So this has been a big goal for me for years. Unfortunately, though, I suffered from a pretty severe eating disorder for a few years so it's very scary to even desire to lose weight but I do. While in quarantine (much like many other Americans) I've put on a "few" pounds and I wanna end the next year a healthier and a little slimmer version of myself. This is, of course, a personal goal and has nothing to do with how I view others, it's just what I want. I think that moving to a new state (especially one with so much nature and so much to see and do) will inspire me to get out more and push me to run and work out more regularly. And having access to better dog parks and such will also help me make sure my sweet beagle boy stays healthy with me!
Take more pictures
This is always a goal for me every year and surprisingly I struggle with it more than any other goal I set for myself. I lost my dad when I was pretty young and I managed to find pictures of him which I hold really dear to myself. Knowing what it's like to have someone just dip out of your life is really scary but it's why I wanna take more pictures. My partner recently gave me a new polaroid camera and I've already gone through a whole pack of film. I've got plans to purchase a used digital camera and will hopefully be upgrading my phone soon so that I can have better camera quality which will allow me to take more photos! I'm hoping that I can get more photos printed next year, as well. If I make it to old age I wanna be one of those old folks who have BINS FULL of old photos. I wanna document my life. Not just for myself but for my friends and family in case anybody kicks it too soon.
Upload to YouTube again!
I posted my first ever youtube video in 2017 I believe. It was a good "penpal with me" video with TERRIBLE quality video but I was fairly proud of my editing skills- I had stockpiled so much footage- Some video from my trips that I'd taken, some concert footage, and even a few speed paints. Unfortunately, somehow, all of that data got corrupted and I've been very unmotivated to try it again- but I think I really wanna get over that and give it a go again. Working on that first video was really fun and resulted in something I was really proud of... I would really like to pursue it further and just make it a regular part of my life even if people don't watch. Cause it would be for me! I think purchasing the digital camera will help with this goal.
Do Art in some form every week
I take a lot of breaks in between art pieces unless I'm hyperfixating. I would really like to learn to paint or draw as soon as inspiration hits AND plan and complete at least two art pieces every month, hopefully with a traditional medium. I love digital art but I really feel as if it's stunted my skills. I want to get back to basics and fall in love with art again and maybe try new things or learn to stick with a few things for longer than a few months.
Continue in my Spiritual Growth
I've been a practicing witch since 2015 and though I still do spellwork in the past couple of years I haven't really taken my time to groom my spiritual needs the way I used too. I hope this year to spend more time meditating, practicing mindfulness, and learning to hone my intuition. I want to get in touch with not my ego but my real self and I hope this next year I can dedicate some time to these things.
Go to therapy regularly, and get back on medication
I haven't spoken to a therapist since I was fourteen years old. I was on medication until about 2013 and that's when my mental health took a nosedive and although I've got a decent grip on it now it's always a bad day away from getting bad again. I'm tired of the back and forth and I hope next year I can get back to therapy and be medicated so I can properly hold down a job and have the resources I need to work on myself so I can continue to grow.
Quit Smoking
I don't even need to explain much about this it just needs to stop.
There are other things of course but these are my big goals- The things I truly wish to accomplish and work on and get better with. I also have a bucket list account so I can track my life dreams and goals but these I'm really going to do my best at and hopefully make next year a year of productivity and change. Here's hoping!
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"To love is to see the face of god"
